Life changes

Wow, for one I can not believe it is October, I mean seriously where has 2012 gone? This year has been a year of serious heartbreak and change. With my job being seasonal I have always been scared to move out on my own, well guess what?! I finally did it and I love living on my own. I have a great roommate. And guess what? I am making it work :). I've become more frugal :). Which is completely shocking lol.

Life sometimes takes an INTERESTING turn!

I really should not have a blog. I suck at blogging. Half the time I forget I have a blog. LOL! Well, the end of April I told a guy who I used to work with in my old department that I liked him and I have liked him for over 4 years. At the time I didn't say anything to him because he was engaged. But I always used to talk to him and casually flirt with him. Well his EX-fiancee left him in November. I didn't find this out until I came back to work. Anyway, he was gonna go to Lake Tahoe to live and try to work things out with her. Well, she basically told him there is nothing left to fix. We are done. Things are going exceptionally well for both of us. And I hope it continues to! :).

I suck at blogging!

I used to blog all the time. What happened? What has happened since August? A lot of things!!!

September 28th: Went to the Erasure concert with Travis. Had a blast.

September 30th: My uncle Mike was found dead at my home. He let the demon he had for years over take him. He died of a drug overdose. I hate the fact that he let drugs over rule his life and it ultimately caused his demise. It was a blow to my entire family.

October 6th: My 30th birthday. It ended up being a great day. Hung out with Maryann part of the day. And then spent the rest of the day hanging out with Travis. It ended up being a great day. October 10th was travis's birthday. Spent the entire day with him. Was a lot of fun.

October: Buried my uncle, lost a friend to cancer, turned 30th and enjoyed life. And I moved! It was a stressful and hard month!

November: Was told that I would be off work for 10 months. (Ended up being only 2 months!). Spent thanksgiving with my family. Also spent thanksgiving with Travis and his family. Got pretty sick right after Thanksgiving.

December: I went to Vegas with Travis to pick up his friend Trish. It was a lot of fun. We went to the Reel Big Fish concert. It was a quick trip. But we went down to bring Trish back for Christmas. I had a hard time driving home with the heater on. I kept falling asleep. Spent some of Christmas with my family. But I spent most of it with Travis. I spent the weekend of New years with him.

Then in early January. Travis decided to be in an exclusive relationship with the other girl he'd been dating. The one who never made time for him and would always cancel on him. Oh wait she still does that. He won't ever figure out that he deserves better. It's been hard. But I am moving on from him. I've gone on some dates. :). I went and visited my best friend Cindy for a week. She definitely knows how to cheer me up. She was my own personal shrink the entire time I was there.

I went back to work January 30th!!! I am glad to be back. I was going crazy being off.

Rollercoaster

I hate that it seems like I NEVER have time to write much anymore.. Seriously when did life get so busy that we can't do the little things? I miss blogging but at the same time I don't have much to say sometimes.. I work, sleep, work, sleep, work sleep.. have a weekend, sleep and then continue the next week.

So, back in April I started dating Travis. Him and I started talking in March. He is 33 will be 34 4 days after my 30th birthday.. He was married for 4 years but with the chick for 9 years and they separated last October. In December he was laid off from his good paying job and his divorce was final in February. So he has gone through a lot in the last 10 months.

Travis and I have a lot in common, and when I say a lot I mean a lot.. it's even odd that we finish each others sentences. We are so much a like that it's funny. We even like a lot of the same music.

Well, I have fallen in love with him and I did a while ago... and I finally told him this last saturday. I didn't mean for it to happen it just did. The reason it is so hard for me date him right now is he doesn't feel like he can be exclusive with me right now, which I can understand, he's been through a lot. Travis and I almost ended everything last saturday, and it was very emotional for me. But it ended up being a miscommunication over text. But we talked about it... and I told him how I truly feel and why it hurts me so bad to know he goes on another date here or there.

I found out last month that he was dating another girl and it pissed me off. It's like tell me upfront your doing that. I almost sent him packing then.

I have been on a "Love Rollercoaster" for the past 6 weeks, and it sucks. I really hope one day soon he pulls his head out. He just tells me he can't be a good boyfriend right now cause his life is so up in the air..

He better figure it out one day or this girl is moving on... and not looking back..

Rosie

WOOHOO! I finally decided to buy a brand new car! My old car was fine but I felt like it was a car a young kid right of high school would drive. My sister has been wanting a car so I decided that she could take over my payments on the other car..(I owe just one more year on it) and that I would get a new car! I didn't plan on getting a Honda! I drove a Civic and I was in love. I couldn't beat .9% on interest for 5 years. I was shocked that I got that interest rate. COMPLETELY SHOCKED! I absolutely love my new car. Check out the pics on facebook! :)

GooGoo for Gaga! And still loving the Scissor Sisters....

Last night I went to the Lady Gaga Concert! :). It was a great show. She really has a great message. She said she was bullied as a kid and teenager. She really has a beautiful voice. She said we should accept all people not matter their ethnicity, sexual orientation or how they look. My mom from when I was young told me to accept everyone. The woman can dance... sing and put on an AWESOME SHOW!

My favorite band is the Scissor Sisters... and they opened up for her! I saw them in Vegas back in September of 2010! And met the lead singer of the Scissor Sisters. He was so nice. The other lead singer Anamatronic (her name is Anna lol) said at last nights concert that "You probably haven't heard of us unless your British or gay." I am neither British or gay. My friend just happened to stumble across their music. I am so glad she did. I love the Scissor Sisters music! 3 of the 4 band mates are gay men. Ana is married. This was probably one of the best concerts I have been too! It was great!

I need to stay focused!

Yes, I have been going to the gym... some days I have lacked motivation but I can't DO THAT anymore! Now, that I am going back to work I think that having to be to work by a certain time and getting to the gym will work just fine. I need to get in better shape... I need to be more healthy.