So fed up.... WITH MEN!

So, I feel like I just wasted the last 6 almost 7 months of my life. I had been dating a guy. And well Thursday he had said something about hanging out this weekend. Well, I told him that he had been acting distant lately (which he had been). And I basically told him I have felt like I have been in the friend zone a while. And he said and I quote "We are friends. I really don't want more than that with anyone right now. But you are important to me. I apologize for being distant lately." For one, why had he been leading me on for months and telling me he likes me...and then says that. For two.. be man enough that you are ALMOST 30 and just say hey right now I am not looking for anything upfront. Instead of stringing my emotions a long for months. He will email me at work and act like nothing is wrong, so I had to send him an email that said.. let me clear my head and then maybe we can be friends in the near future. I am fed up with dating. Seriously. I am 29 and I feel like I have dated a lot of "young" guys who don't know what the heck they want.

I would like my friends to set me up with guys they think I would be compatible with rather than ones that I have nothing in common with. I really want to be in a relationship that leads to marriage. I am meeting all the wrong guys. It sucks. People keep saying

You gotta kiss a lot of frogs, to find your prince.

My response is...

You live in a fantasy world and have watched too many DISNEY movies.

My heart is broken and I feel sad...

29 things I want to accomplish before my 30th birthday.

Well it's an hour into my birthday. I have been pretty negative lately. I always get a little meloncholy around my birthday cause I never feel like I really accomplish anything. I have decided that it's time to make me a better me and start doing stuff to better my life. Here are 29 serious and funny things I want to do in the next year.

1. Get back to the gym and lose weight.
2. Start eating better.
3. Learn how to budget my money better and stick to a budget.
4. Have a couple thousand saved dollars saved up in my savings account.
5. Get out and meet new people.
6. Try to start going back to church.
7. Get out and date more.
8. Go on some vacations.
9. Get a permanent position with the Federal Government.
10. Buy a flat screen tv and a blu ray player.
11. Pay down my debt.
12. Be a better friend.
13. Reconnect people from my past.
14. Be the best person I can be.
15. Be more positive.
16. Take more pictures.
17. Read more.
18. Learn to be happy with myself.
19. Live with no regrets.
20. Do more crafts.
21. Be happy with being single.
22. Get a passport and use it!
23. Visit with my grandma more.
24. Move into my own place.
25. Write poetry more often.
26. Stop and "smell the roses" everyday, find the joy in every day.
27. Learn to sew.
28. Make someone's day whenever you can.
29. Thank God everyday for something.

Let's hope that I can do this. :). Even if I don't that's okay. But.. in the next year of my life I want to try to start making something of myself.

Lion King!!

So, this afternoon I went to my first broadway show.. granted I know I am NOT anywhere close to NYC. But Capitol Theatre has broadway shows from touring companies. I saw Lion King and I ABSOLUTELY LOVED IT! :) Rafiki was my favorite character in the musical. In the movie Rafiki's voice is a man's voice in the play it's a woman who had an amazing voice. :). It was so colorful and fun. I went with my friend Felice and her family it was fun. :). I need to go musicals more often. I LOVE THEM!

What have I been up to?

Can't say that I have been up to much! Well, I take that back. It's been a fairly busy summer, I have worked overtime all summer, which has made for some nice checks. Looking like I will get some time off at the end of the year. Which I am looking forward too. I hate working around the holidays.

Since I am single I have decided I need to travel more. So next year for my 30th birthday I am going to Washington DC. I have a cousin back there who said I could stay at her house. So, I plan on being gone for 2 1/2 weeks. Should be a good time. I am also planning a trip to San Francisco with a couple of friends.. And not to mention, I am going to vegas in a little under 3 weeks! I will be flying in a plane for the first time. But I am excited. It'll be fun! I will be going to a concert of one of my favorite bands, going to the bellagio for dinner one night (heard they have the best buffet), going shopping, watching college football, Going to a cirque de solei show, people watching and just have a fabulous time with my friend felice. :) Can't wait!

My 29th birthday is coming up pretty soon. I am trying to decide what I want to go and do. :)

Flaming Gorge & Vegas!

So from July 9th-11th I was in flaming gorge with my step dad's side of the family. The water was too cold to swim in (that didn't stop the kids from swimming). I went swimming twice and had enough. I got lost on the way up there and drove 50 miles out of the way. Oh well. It was fun though. Didn't take any pictures. But my dog had a blast in the water. It rained a lot, and it was super hot. I had from the 9th-13th off of work. It was a much needed break!

I am so excited! I am going to Vegas in September with one of my favorite and bestest friends Felice. We are going to our favorite band's concert, going to a cirque de solei show and I AM FLYING for the first time in my life. I can't wait to go!

New bedroom set

I bought a new bedroom set for a little over $1,000.00. It's fantastic! :). LOVE, LOVE, LOVE IT! It came with a tall dresser, night stand, headboard and footboard, and a shorter dresser that you can put a TV on. I get it delivered on thursday. And the best part is I have a year to pay it off. Can't wait!

One of those nights...

I just know if I go to bed I will probably toss and turn all night. I don't know why. I know people probably get sick of hearing this but when AM I GONNA MEET the right guy? I have been dating this guy Matt for about 2 months. But I am beginning to think it's not going anywhere. So, why should I even bother? Seriously? Believe me I date ALOT! Some guys I just don't click with. I don't think I am horribly ugly. Am I? I really want to meet a good guy, get married, and then maybe have a couple kids. I am starting to wonder if I am never going to get married. :(.