Back to reality!

I go back to work on Monday the 14th. I can not wait. I have been furloughed from work since December 3rd. I have enjoyed the time off :). But it's time to go back. I need to start saving up for my Washington DC/NYC trip in October!! Can't wait! It's gonna be awesome. I am going to go see my cousin Jaymie I have not seen in almost 12 years. It's going to be a great reunion!

I HATE Valentines Day!

Most people love this holiday! I do not. I think one of my "trials" in life is that I have not found the one I am supposed to marry. Most of my friends are married and have been for years! Then there is me the 29 year old single girl. SUCKS!

I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!! I hate Valentines Day!!!

No Excuses

So the past 6 weeks I have been working out. I am LOVING it! I crave exercise now. For the most part I have not drank pop in 6 weeks. I have replaced my love with pop with water. Every day I get up and get excited to go to the gym. I usually don't have time to read. But I have started reading while I am walking on the treadmill. I am enjoying the weight training aspect of exercising. Although it a lot of times kicks my butt. It hasn't been hard to start eating better. I have started using a calorie tracker app on my phone. And it has helped me make better choices when I eat if I am out and about with family or friends.

A lot of people recently have talked about wanting to get in shape but have not taken ACTION to do what they really NEED to do. People use the excuse that they don't have the time to exercise. I love this quote from my gym....

"Those who think they have no time for exercise, will sooner or later have to find time for illness."

Which is completely true. If you don't make time for the gym or exercise now you will have health problems in the future. Heart problems run in my family with some people who are a little more overweight also diabetes runs in my family. I do not want to have either. I want to live a long healthy and happy life and getting in shape will make me more healthy. It also has been a good stress relief for me.

My life as of late...

Well, I am finally starting to feel the pains of the economy. Yes, I have a great job. But, I can't work if congress doesn't pass the federal budget as a seasonal employee. It's really starting to piss me off. I make good money and I my sole provider. If I am not making money I am not able to pay my bills. Granted I get good unemployment but the crappy part is I owe taxes this year. And I HAVE TO PAY THEM ON TIME! Or I am totally screwed. I can lose my job. Yes, I am a little stressed.

January 24-29th I went and visited one of my best friends.. Cindy! I had a great time. And I am gonna make a point of seeing her a few times a year even if it going down on a weekend :). We had a lot of fun. I feel like whenever I see her that we just pick up where we left off. She claims that she is boring. But I love spending time with her! She is someone I aspire to be like!

The gym is going well. A couple weeks ago I took a week and a half break. I was sick and then went to Cindy's I am feeling great. I have a strong support system and that has been awesome.

30, fLiRty & FaBuLoUs!!!

Okay so for the past few weeks I have seriously felt depressed. I am one who is positive and happy but recently I have really felt down. I had read a journal entry from a few years ago that I had made. Sad, thing is I had a lot of the feelings that I had from then. And guess what the problem was? ME! I'll admit it. I am one that thinks life should just happen for me. If I want to change MY life, I have to do it myself!!! I am not gonna lose weight by hoping. I have to take action to get what I want in LIFE! By not taking action I am losing out on life and it's my own fault.

So what is in store for me this year? I am turning 30 which I'll be honest is freaking me out! But to be honest why should it? It's just a new chapter in my life. If I am able to get time off work I am going to visit my cousin Jaymie in Washington DC for 2 weeks. What a way to turn 30? Going on vacation.

I am my own worst critic I need to get back to the gym which I am starting today...and not give up and keep going. My weight isn't gonna fall off overnight!!!!! I shouldn't expect it too!

So here is to a great year! I am gonna start making myself a better person mentally, physically and emotionally! It's gonna be a long journey but I am ready!

Does anyone even read my blog?

Probably not!! I rarely post anything. Not that I don't have lots going on. I just sometimes think I am lame! Which is why I don't post..

What have I been up to?

Well, I was extremely sick over Thanksgiving and almost had to go to the ER thanksgiving day. I could not breathe. I could go outside and breathe just fine because it was so cold. Well like an idiot I still went and did Black Friday shopping with my friend and her friend. Got home at 7am and I slept till 3:30 and then went to the doctor. I had a virus.. but also had an ear infection. Even though I was so sick I still went to the BYU vs UTAH football game. It was an awesome game. :). Then on December 3rd I got furloughed from work. It has been extremely nice having time off work but I am starting to get bored. December 4th I went to a fun ornament exchange party. Well, like an Idiot my paint didn't dry on my ornaments so they had leaked out. That was interesting.. but they turned out cute. Then later that day I went to go the festival of trees with my friend's Tiffany and Felice and Tiffany's little girl Paisley! It was a blast. December 15th I had a work Christmas party that I went to. It was good seeing my team. On December 18th, I went to my friend Jessica's ward party.. It was actually kind of lame and Jessica would admit that too. Her and I exchanged gifts and then her friend from her ward came over and we talked for a good 3 hours. It was a pretty intense conversation.. but her friend Robyn is super nice! As most of you know I have been struggling with my beliefs at church which has kept me away over half of the last decade. A lot of what Robyn was talking about opened my eyes to some things. It was great. Christmas was wonderful with my family. I just LOVE my family and all of my awesome friends... they always spoil me and I am so grateful for everything people do for me. I went to my grandma's house on Christmas. It was great!! We ate, opened gifts and just enjoyed being together as a family.

I am starting ANOTHER EXERCISE program tomorrow. It's time to get in shape. I no longer feel "comfortable" in my own skin.. which means I need to make some life changes... so here goes.. Those who have lost weight, how do you keep the motivation?

So Sad... :(

As most of you know. I am a HUGE University of Utah fan. I was so sad that they let TCU dominate the game yesterday. They didn't even show up to the game and got their butts kicked. I know that they are a better team than that. They let this big game get to their head and then BAM.. nothing. 47-7 guys? Seriously? What pissed me off the most that maybe 20,000 fans left early! And then Utah fans started booing their team. Come on guys, they can't win them all.. and you LOVE them when they win.. can't you love them when they LOSE? GRRR! Oh well. I am hoping they atleast go 11-1 on the season!!